Number do(2) ki mahima

How does it feel to know that you worked, made all efforts for something, but you didn’t get that your desperate first priority, you had to settle down on the second option. Or you were the second option when it came to choosing between two people. I would say” aukaad se milta hai, aukaad main raho.”

Some people are used to it at least I have a group of friends who unanimously believe this. I have numerous incidents from my own past to show this. To begin with, my admission in boarding school, the first priority was Welhams, Dehradun, did not get admission there so took the only option available Col. Brown Cambridge School. In school there I, without the intention to boast, was overall a good student an all rounder. But when the best all rounder was decided, I was still the second best. I was the even second highest percentage holder in school. Then made an attempt to change school, applied to Doon & RIMC Dehradun, both refused admission in the 2^nd round the interviews. Took the second option available, came to Delhi, just a confession over the years I have realized this was the biggest blunder, crap decision I have ever made in my life. If I get an option to go back in time and change something….for sure I would change this without doubt. Anyways, I wanted admission in DPS, did not get that. Tried for those second grade schools such as Montfort they too refused only DAV took me apparently the second best in the area I was to spend the coming 5 yrs. No grudges, by that time fairly used to this secondary thing, accepted it. It actually was a third grade school, for people who know actually what school is all about don’t ever take that as an option. For others who aren’t aware of the purpose of school have a look at it and you will know what all a school should not have.

Anyways, whenever it came to options of subjects always the second option weather Sanskrit or Comp.Sc. or the career stream of non-medical subjects. Made all possible efforts to get into IIT for my Undergrad course, I had still that spirit to fight for the best no matter weather I get it or not. So, like all other times, IIT strictly no no, NSIT yes yes….again the 2^nd tier college of India and def. the 2^nd best in Delhi. I was among the little less than the best guys in college.

Came the placements, my efforts for getting into the core electronics companies came crashing very soon, I had to take up my next option of HLS, a matter of coincidence they are the 2^nd best people in their field Schlumberger being the best. They took me, as they conveyed to me later that initially they were apprehensive if they should hire me but on second thoughts they decided to. I am the only engineer with them now, from that entire group of 10 engineers hired that time, they are happy that they decided in favour of their second thought.

Now in other matters, hypothesize if somebody told you that you were just a second option or a backup, how would you feel. Definitely, you would hate that person for having considered you that ways. But for me, “apne ko toh aadat hai number do ki shuru se,” so if my being a backup can let somebody have the faith and assurance to pursue with confidence whatever they like, it is simply great. In fact that shows that you trust me more than the awwal number, because you doubt that it might not work you took me as a backup a solid reliable waala, par is backup ka backup toh nahin socha. So, like all other earlier times seconds ka maal label lag gaya.

To begin my next phase of career for MBA I tried for IIM and similar leagues colleges no chance a failed attempt. Anyways, now comes the second option of GMAT lets hope for the best.

“Ek problem hai, ke abhi tak jo fight maarne ki zeal hai woh poori tarah khatam nahin hui hai, saali bade tagde ishtyle main koot koot ke bhari hai.” So, the gist is that I aimed high fought for it, nahin mila..koi nahin, whatever I got I accepted that. Have grudges for some, have liked some, have admired some, enjoyed appreciated others. But, with time I have become more accepting than before that, “awwal number ki fight abhi bhi maarenge, lekin saala duje se neeche nahin jaayenge abhi itni bhi aukaad nahin giri, kal ka pata nahin.”

The Speaking Portrait.

There are two people who can admire, understand and appreciate a work of art. First, it’s creator the person who infused life into that work of art. Second, an admirer who gave it the right appreciation it ought to get. Both are equally in awe of the painting but the way they look at it is very very different…rather poles apart.

The creator: He puts all his effort to realize a dream that he has, to create his masterpiece. The art is appreciated, as the creator wants and expects it to. The creator visits the art gallery, inconspicuous to all visitors, for him it is the praise that his painting gets, more important to him than he being praised for the same. The painting feels, likes his presence, the painting always waits for its creator, it wants that no one other than the creator to take her home. The creator too wants the same. Though he is the creator of the masterpiece, yet he has to make efforts for the painting which he does.

The admirer: He knows exactly what the creator wanted to create, the admiration the painting deserves. He stands by the painting for hours mesmerized by it, for days, weeks and longer and could do so till eternity. He knows that he can take care of the painting, but he also realizes that there could be people who can take care of her better. He simply thinks that some day things will be just perfect for him to try and ask the painting to come home with him. He has apprehensions, which he wants the painting to decide for itself, which is the better of all options. The painting likes being admired by his admirer, when the creator is not there it is the admirer she wants to have around, the painting is also fearful if the creator is unable to make it she expects the admirer to standby as an alternative, he unknowingly and knowingly does, because that is what the painting expects from him.

The creator and the admirer do not feel each others presence, they both only have one thing in mind that the painting makes it to the place where she ought to be. The creator has the consent of the painting the admirer is just given an expectation. The creator is the priority the admirer is secondary. The creator and admirer both are very different, the creator is far better than the admirer. Their efforts for the painting are different, the admirer is silent unless expected to speak.

In a situation when the painting has to choose between the creator and the admirer, she chooses the creator. She does the right thing, but painting gives no reason as to why, probably she does not find the admirer worthy or she does not feel the necessity to explain it to the admirer. The painting does not say a word. It is this ability of the portrait to speak that makes it a special creation of that creator, the one that the admirer loves, and also the one which she looses in this tussle.