Saturday, March 08, 2008

Zindagi-main aks hoon tera.

Amitabh in one of his movies quoted “ zindagi soz bane, saaz na hone paaye; aur jab saaz-e-dil baje, toh awaaz na hone paaye. Various facets of life or to say zindagi have been penned down by great poets and writers. I think of myself as a reflection of reality called life. I follow what this life wants me to do, I become what it expects me to. But, there is a wide gap between what I would have expected it to be and what it is now. Although, this struggle is eternal, but it is necessary; agar yeh jatojahean na rahi toh yeh zindagi neeras ho jaayegi bandhu.

Jis shiddat(passion) se jiya hai maine, tujhe e zindagi; us andaaz(way) ko bayan (narrate) karne ke liye mere pas lafz nahin, aur use samajhne ke liye jo ehsaas chaahiye woh tere paas nahin,
Jis chaahat se chaaha hai maine, tujhe e zindagi; us jazbe(feeling) se kuch ummedd rakhoon itna chota dil mera nahin, aur tu us jazbaat-e-khayaal ka khayal rakh paaye itna bada dil tera nahin.


Jis shikwe (grudge) ki shikaayat tak nahin ki maine, tujhse e zindagi; usko shikast(defeat) ki shakl de doo itna bhi main abhi haara nahin, aur tu use manzar-e-jashn (time of celebration) ka khitab de paye itni bhi tu abhi jeeti nahin.
Jis zaraafat (humour) ke hunar ko taraasha maine, tere liye e zindagi; usko hujoom ( public) ne tanz( mockery) kahaa mansooba (intention) woh tha nahin, aur kaifiyaat (narrative talent) ki is ada ko tu ne zinda dili kaha nahin,
Jis taaluk (relationship) par fakr kiya maine, woh tujhse hai e zindagi; usko aaz(lust) kahoon itna bhi main pashemaan(repentant) nahin, aur tu use pakeezah(pure) kahe itni bhi tu meharbaan nahin.
Jis khiffat( humiliation) ko piyaa maine, tere liye e zindagi; usko teri khataa(mistake) kahoon yeh angusht-numai (pointing fingers) meri fitrat nahi, aur tu sharmsaar ho itni urooj ( high) teri maahiyat ( temperament, nature) nahin.
E zindagi main aur kuch nahin, aks hoon tera.
Par chahta hoon yeh fark bana rahe, waqt ka aaena mujhe tujhse aise hi roobaroo karwaaye, kyunki... tu meri zaroorat hai. Aakhir main aks hoon tera, tere bina meri hasti hi kya hai.