Not all days are same, neither are all the days all together different. The so called average office going salaried person has nothing much to see, do or experience on every day basis. Life is monotonous, boring yet accepted, yet moving and yet we all would not want to escape from this.
This was just a simple thing i wanted to put forward that whatsoever may come, few things are bound not to change one of them is the way we have led are lives till now and most of us will continue doing that.
After having said this , why is there a mention of a particular day. It started just like a normal day. Me getting up early, drank 4 full glasses of lukewarm water with black salt, then the bath etc etc. Went to office. Things appeared normal, only that i was aware that today my IITB management result will be out. So, kind of nervous a little bit. But suddenly a labourer came running panting and said something that i could not make out. Other than the fact that something needed urgent attention. I was later told that while drilling the basement the mud collapsed and one worker (name i dont know) was burried under it. The foolish contractor in a state of panic asked the earthmover to quickly dig out the person. In a state of panic and hurry the earthmover hit the worker in his ribs . Broke the ribs and made a big bruise there rather a hole. They got him out from there and that is when the person i met in office panting came there.
We were reported that it was difficult for him to survive, yet the managers there could not take a decision what to do. They called up their boss in US for such stupid and trivial issues like, which car to send, is there a wireless set in that car, is the labourer companies or contractors, who all will go and nonsense. It took about and hour before they dispatched him out. He died on the way. I was present all the time. Things that came out from this
1) i am working with incapable managers
2) incapable to the extent that a layman can act better than them in such a situation.
3) they had their own cars not one offered , neither had the guts to go ahead and take control of the situation to save a life. Rather they called up their boss in the US.
4) the HR acted as if he had nothing to do with that. The real son of a bitch he is.
5) for them their bosses command , their job, their vehicle expense is more than the life of a worker who was working for them. Even some unknown roadside dog if found in a bad state is taken care of by the nearby people.This man had and end worse than the dog, ya what else can u say.
6) Not one of them went ahead to give mouth to mouth respiration because he was a low level labourer, his life is of less money than the toothpaste cost, and the mouthwash that they used.The other labourers didnt know how to give mouth to mouth respiration, one reason he could not make it to the hospital.
7) people like the vice president did not even went to have a look they were busy in checking mails, finalising a purchase price etc etc even when he knew what had happened.
These kind of F****** things went on and on. Where was i ?
Initially trying to get knowledge of how, then instructing how to give mouth to mouth and just waiting and watching while abusing the managers and coworkers. I dont know for what reson, could be the fear of losing a job (something that did not come that time) and definintely i dont think this could be the reason, or for the reason that i was a little helpless, or it did not strike that i could forcibly take the car and drive and etc etc. did not strike me. I simply let that man die.
I dont know how to put it, but my job desperation, my limitations put and end to a life. I can not overcome that guilt and neither can i have it come on my face. People say hate is too strong a word to be used, i think i really hate my self for having let this happen.
I have written a resignation letter, but holding on to it till i get another job.The dilema is should i quit right now or hold on the way it is, thinking and accepting that I am not "The one" to change this, as far as i get my salary all is fine. But this can happen to me you or anyone, think about it.
Then came the result of IITB i did not make it. This did upset me but probably not even 1% of the above episode.It shows bad, and good are so very relative things, one thing that was the most important(a career turning point, a years effort etc ) till the minute before the episode did not impact much, rather this incident has made me rethink how to start ahead now on.
Be practical and write back what would you have done had you been there at my place there then and now, on Thursday 23/03/2006.
